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DAY
Day
The sensation is like being dragged through a cloud. A heavy, roiling nimbus which pervades your eyes, your ears, your skin, and what feels like your very soul. Or what's left of it.
Your eyes squeeze shut and when they open....well you know this place already, there was much ado about lampposts in this square not too long ago. But what you haven't known in how many weeks is the sun hanging high overhead, not stuck in a perpetual state of Twilight but properly shining in the sky.
The sun feels good and you feel more whole than you have in a while. Those are all inexplicably good things, and they should be celebrated. But the mark on your body, faded but still visible warns of something still more to come. And for those who have been missing a part of themselves for longer than that..it's just a whisper of a feeling, but it is very much real.
Welcome to Krakow, for real this time. For however long it lasts, at least.
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[ He frowns... That's a terrible tragedy, and it takes a good while for Shin to think of a response. ]
But it wasn't your fault.
[ He closes his eyes, his voice coming out somber, but a bit stern. ] How could anyone blame you for the actions of others? The Mafia's boss decided to use you as bait and no one else knew, and even if they did? Odasaku would have still put himself in the line of fire.
[ He reaches to place his free hand on the back of a pew, letting his fingers drum on the wood as he glances up at Ango. ]
Unless you killed him yourself, you don't even have his blood on your hands.
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[But nobody has ever told him that none of this was his fault before. It makes his stomach turn in an unpleasant way. ]
I'm not looking for pity or to escape blame here. I just... ever since that day, Dazai has only looked at me with cold eyes. To see that friendliness again was... I missed it. And I was selfish and I wanted to hold onto that for a little while longer.
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. . . Yes, perhaps it was selfish... But isn't it human to want things that badly? To do anything to save what was lost, or to go to a place where people won't frown upon your work... It's even worse when the choices you make when you're desperate have such horrible consequences.
[ Perhaps, in another life, Shin and his brother could have convinced Reverend Gray to accept them both. Maybe he should have known that was even an option before... But it's too late to save his twin. Far too late. ]
... So, yes. I know how you feel.
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...thank you. For understanding, and for not immediately punching me.
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He manages a softer smile, even though he still feels the residual pain. ]
Don't worry, I know of more worthy targets than you.
[ Targets, not material. Ango is neither, considering how plain he is compared to the rest. ]